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Goooood Evening
Posted on 2006.03.02 at 21:23Current Mood:
Defeated
Current Music: Mars Lighthouse - Golden Sun 2: The Lost Age
So how is everyone? I've just been a bit on the stressed part. Though it's my fault anyway. I really procrastinated and ended up having to turn in my computer program a day late thus penalizing me 10% of the overall grade. That same night I got my C++ test back and I scored a 60/100 which made me feel worse.
My US Hist. class was worse. I fell behind on a unit I was supposed to do and recieved a zero for it, I even fell farther behind and didn't even do the extra credit. Next week is spring break and my US. Hist. midterm is then. I sure hope I can pass it...
Took a Calc. 3 test today. Boy, it goes to show you how Calculus is indeed uber algebra. There is a rule in math that the longer you work on the problem, the more likely you are going to make mistakes. I felt that while taking the whole test today.
What if I lose my scholarship for college.... I will lose my only funding to college and have not planned for the worse. What if I can no longer pay for college. I'll probably end up living a life of poverty as my mind wastes away... I feel so powerless. I can't do anything... I don't want to be poor.... there is not fulfillment of a life of poverty... I desire power so I no longer have to deal with these struggles. My answer to those that ask why I seek power so much is so that my life could be easier and in hopes of to gain others' respect. I also found out that I'm highly jealous of those that have found love. I just look at them and see them either holding hands or scratching the others' head and my mind just breaks.... I get the thoughts of knowing that she is not out there. That my path in life is leading me to a grand downfall of complete lonliness...
My US Hist. class was worse. I fell behind on a unit I was supposed to do and recieved a zero for it, I even fell farther behind and didn't even do the extra credit. Next week is spring break and my US. Hist. midterm is then. I sure hope I can pass it...
Took a Calc. 3 test today. Boy, it goes to show you how Calculus is indeed uber algebra. There is a rule in math that the longer you work on the problem, the more likely you are going to make mistakes. I felt that while taking the whole test today.
What if I lose my scholarship for college.... I will lose my only funding to college and have not planned for the worse. What if I can no longer pay for college. I'll probably end up living a life of poverty as my mind wastes away... I feel so powerless. I can't do anything... I don't want to be poor.... there is not fulfillment of a life of poverty... I desire power so I no longer have to deal with these struggles. My answer to those that ask why I seek power so much is so that my life could be easier and in hopes of to gain others' respect. I also found out that I'm highly jealous of those that have found love. I just look at them and see them either holding hands or scratching the others' head and my mind just breaks.... I get the thoughts of knowing that she is not out there. That my path in life is leading me to a grand downfall of complete lonliness...